Choosing Purposeful Alignment: The Messy Middle of Transformation by Tracey Greene-Washington

Author:Tracey Greene-Washington
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: journey to happy ending, journey to transformation, journey to change, finding purpose in life, game changer book, challenging moments, transformation books
Publisher: Elite Online Publishing
Published: 2020-10-23T00:00:00+00:00

What disempowering feelings do I need to shift?

What disempowering actions do I need to shift?

What narratives and fears do I need to interrupt to rest so I can have the space to be purposefully aligned?

Where do I need to use my energy?

What do I need from my circle of influence in order to find respite and to implement restorative practices?

Healing

I had to wrestle with the residue.

Something amazing happened as I took respite and rested. I began to think more clearly. I asked myself self-critical questions. What was my role in selecting and aligning myself in these spaces, relationships, and institutions? Why had I ignored or accepted that these places were toxic, disorienting, or distracting me from reaching purposeful alignment? What was my contribution in this situation? In my Big Mama voice, the answer came: “You picked them.”

I had to come to terms with the fact that I had not done the deep healing necessary for me to purposefully align, to move into a forward stance, to find my rhythm, to focus my energy, and to have clear awareness. This time of respite and healing created an amazing opportunity to drop down into that space. I knew I couldn’t take this baggage with me and move towards purposeful alignment. Like any good organizer, I started to assemble my circle of influence, my truth tellers. You know the ones who won’t lie to you and won’t allow you to lie to yourself. Then, I returned to my therapist, whom I had called upon several times in the previous months. I was grateful she welcomed me back with a big smile and a hug.

“Now, let’s get to the hard work you were resistant to doing,” she said. “If you do it, Tracey, it will open up so many amazing possibilities for you.”

I also retained a chiropractor to help with the pain in my neck, shoulder, and back. I had normalized these aches from the eight years of commuting three hours, and sometimes more, each day. Funny thing is I rarely drive two hours a month now because I know that is not the normal rhythm for my body, and I embraced a better way to do the work. While I was doing the work of activating my community, nesting, organizing, and scheduling, I heard Erykah Badu singing “Bag Lady” in my head.

I had to get intimate with what it meant to let go of my baggage and make the choice to pack light going forward. This was a requirement for me to be purposefully aligned. Packing light was new to me. I had to experiment. I even changed the type of purse I carried. I traded my oversized bag, which I loved, for a simple clutch pocketbook with a long, thin strap that I could wear across my body. I could only fit the necessities in there—a few cards and dollar bills, a little change, lip gloss, and my phone—and I instantly noticed I had less clutter. Even my left shoulder, which I’d had problems with since the previous year, stopped throbbing as much.

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